That must be the story of innumerable couples, and the pattern of life it offers has a homely grace。 It reminds you of a placid rivulet,meandering smoothly through green pastures and shaded by pleasant trees, till at last it falls into the vast sea; but the sea is so calm, so silent, so indifferent, that you are troubled suddenlyby a vague uneasiness。Perhaps it is only by a kink in my nature, strong in me even in those days, that i felt in such an existence, the share of the great majority, something amiss。 I recognized its social value。 I saw its ordered happiness, but a fever in my blood asked for a wilder course。 There seemed to me something alarming in such easy delights。 In my heart was desire to live more dangerously。 I was not unprepared for jagged rocks and treacherous shoals if I could only have change and the excitement of unforeseen。